Not so good day!

So today was super hard. This weekend Janae kept saying how much she hated kindergarten and didn't want to go. I know already on Thursday she was saying, " I don't like kindergarten but I will go because I know I have to." She wasn't showing any signs of being upset when I dropped her off and I heard nothing from her teacher so I thought all was good. Well this morning when I went to drop her off, the teacher opened the door and Janae came to me and had tears in her eyes. So I helped her to her classroom to get her indoor shoes on and hang her back pack. Still she was crying these sad sad tears. At this point I am in tears as well and can't speak cause I will start bawling if I open my mouth:) I walk her to circle, reassure her she will be ok and I tell her I will come and see her at lunch time and I leave. I leave bawling my eye's out in the car and Camryn saying" Mommy I think you are crying real tears!!" I get to Camryn's preschool where my girlfriend shows up and say " not a good morning" and look up at her to see that she too is bawling as her daughter didn't want to go to school either. So the two of us (Both pregnant) sat together laughing and crying like babies with our preschoolers looking at us weird!

At lunch time I went to Janae's school and waited at the playground. She came out with her grade 5 buddy crying. Her buddy Taleah told me that Janae had cried the whole time at recess too. Janae came into my arms crying and telling me how she has cried all day, her eyes looked so tired and she was a bit pale and complaining of a headache. After our 20 minute lunch break together she was all smiles and ready for the afternoon. When I came to pick her up she was beaming from ear to ear. She said she had a good afternoon but still doesn't want to go back tomorrow:( I am just hoping there are no tears tomorrow.

At home I talked to Janae more about school and she shared with me that she had cried last week at school as well but didn't want to tell me cause she was embarressed:( felt horrible that she wanted to be so brave for me:(

Tomorrow she is looking forward to starting Kiwanis at a local church so I think that will help her get through her day maybe tearless?? Ahhhhh, why did they switch kindergarten for full time. I am a strong believe that it is NOT in the child's best interest. This is purely done for the working mom and from talking to parents they are the ones who think it is so great, not because they think their child needs full kindergarten but because it frees them of finding child care and paying for it. I hope that by keeping Janae in kindergarten she will overcome her loneliness and find a good friend that she looks forwards to seeing at school and that this doesn't cause anxiety issues for her.

On the other hand Camryn did great and is loving school, helps that she has a good friend to go with:)

Pregnancy wise a couple of weeks ago I started to have some really bad pains in my pelvic area, which I went to the doctors to see about as it got to the point where I couldn't even lift my legs to pull my pants on with out sitting down. Doctor told me it would probably be there my entire pregnancy and to try and avoid things that bothered it. Well last night in the middle of the night I got up to use the washroom and when I climbed back in bed I did something and there was this crack/thud sound and shift in my hip and then all the pain dissappeared. And all day today it has been fine, so I guess it wasn't a muscle thing like the doctor kept saying but something out of place. Hoping it stays in place from now on:)